I can't believe I waited 33 years to figure out something, when people have been telling me all along, using innuendos and different tricks of communication too clearly let me know the right plan of action. it's almost like infection had already starting to creep inside of my bones. There was only one symptom, and a devastating one. I had reality banging on the window and shaking my tree. Caressing Me Gently. With a dire rage descending and consuming. Just in hopes for a moment of my attention reality would throw insults in the face and then choke me out with barbed wire which was heated until till it was red hot.
But I didn't see the need to notice or react..
Now it is what it is....